a rough rough week

 i've been planning on doing a rockstar album personal essay style review with more details about life stuff, but i felt like firing off a short post today too. if you follow my locked twitter you will know that i have had a pretty intense and difficult last seven or so days, from a crisis at work to getting functionally laid off from my job the next day to contracting norovirus and being laid up in bed since yesterday morning. after being ahead all month i've now fallen behind on nano after not writing at all for two days. i am very tired. updating fic tonight was fun but i think also is really driving home the combination of twitter being dead and the aftershocks of an incident earlier this year where a lot of former friends and mutuals disappeared from my life more or less overnight, and it's made it hard to feel the same rush of excitement as i have in the past. 

all this to say, [sad trumpets]. v grateful to gf and friends for checking on me, v tired in some ways of living alone (which i generally enjoy but not when i'm feeling unwell!). i hope someday soon to be feeling better and more stable but, as has been true for most of the year, i am just trying to get to the end of 2023 without incurring further metaphorical injuries.

i hope you all have had a better week than i have!! <3